And the present


What really happens when you like a person and you do not have the guts to tell him because you are so afraid to be  hurt and rejected, or because you are thinking you are not yet ready for any other responsibilities towards the other person, or because you are better to be alone?

What really happens when you feel like life was pulling you back and forth and whatever you do won’t be enough for the people around you and you would never receive any compliment, just criticisms and more criticisms?

What really happens when everything around you feels like falling apart and you have nothing to do but watch your life shattering before you?

What really happens when the people you are really close with and you can share anything with are not available in times of deepest grief and despair?

What really happens when you feel so alone, that even if you convince yourself that you have other people who would listen to you, it just doesn’t feel right?

What really happens when all you can do is let life throw itself on you and you can’t do anything at all but just go with the flow?

What really happens when you feel crazy about all the things happening around you and you really want to surrender?

What really happens when suddenly you feel really uncomfortable with yourself because of other peoples’ criticisms about you and you want to change everything from head to feel because you really feel ashamed?

What really happens when you can never really be with the person you like for more than the reasons you could imagine?

What really happens when you regret you did not tell someone how you really feel?

What really happens when the only thing you could talk to is your laptop?

What really happens when there are many “if’s” in your brain right now and you settled to overthinking that you feel that your head might explode in any minute now?

What really happens when you feel that things are getting worse in time?

What really happens when you replace all of the above with happy thoughts?

Then, maybe you will be at peace with yourself and to everything around you.


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