Caramel Speaks

I hate to burst someone else’s bubbles but I think I would not like to celebrate the New Year’s Eve. It feels that although we are complete, we are broken. Although we stand firm, we’re disabled. Although we keep smiling, our hearts were bleeding. Although we have faces to show people, I bet, that's not always the real us. If it was just me, there’s no reason to celebrate, at all. People won’t understand where I am coming from and they  wouldn't  even take a step back. Never would I have experienced such atrocity in my heart before, painfully killing my soul and tearing it into pieces. During these moments, I would rather be busy than being calm; rather be preoccupied than abandoned. It would be better to forget oneself than endure the chaos inside. I am miserable and disoriented now. Everything plays randomly on my mind and I don’t know which to shut down and which to start. Mess, that’s what I am. Sooner or later, I would forget about these things. Years fr...

To my crush, Three years have passed, some things changed, some things remained the same. You were the sunshine lighting my every day. You were the best part of my story. You were the one I have waited to complete me. Since the first time I saw you, I have been longing for you. Every day I am wishing that you could spare some time with me or even greet me. Seeing you makes my heart sing with gladness. I am very happy seeing my name in the first line of your message, whatever message it may be. I have also thought if you would only text me if you needed some information about academic stuffs, well that was ok for me as long as my name was there, just kidding. Every time we ate together with my best friends, I could always resist hiding my feelings for you. Could you still remember the first time we went outside together, just the two of us? Well, me, I could remember every detail. It was also December then. I am very happy to be with you that night, it was like a date, kid...